I developed this after spending hours in a state of numbness. I'll try and define this down to three words: perception, judgement, and honesty. You may not understand, but I wouldn't expect you to.

To shine some sort of clarity on the poem, think of a person who has gone through a deep depression, who has been given a chance of happiness again, but who feels confused and conflicted by the world around him and of what society/reality expects of him. Of course I am referring to myself in the third person, but I'd like to think this poem could equally be applied to other people, not just something I whittled off as an elaborate vent.

The last stanza spells out "rage". This came about by accident. I'd written down to "All the guilt", when I suddenly looked at the words going down spelling "rag", so then I thought I'd add in "emotions", so that in a weird sort of way the words would spell "rage". It's like a physical manifestation hidden some-what within the context of the overall poem of my own inner feelings at the time of writing.

"Psychosisality" is not a word. I know. So please don't point out that it isn't. "Psychosisality" is an amalgam of "Psychosis", which is a generic term used to describe a mental state involving a loss of contact with reality, mixed with two words ending with "-ality": "Personality" and "Reality".

Originally this was to be called "Broken", but I believe another poem of mine from a year or so ago has the same title. I then thought of "Fractured", but that didn't really resonate with me. Then I remembered "Psychosis", and that on it's own didn't stand out for me. So I went with "Psychosis Reality", which led me to join the two words together to form "Psychosisality".

The definition of "Psychosisality",
noun: the mental state of a loss of control with reality, which has blended with an individual's personality.